...and the bad parts like to kick you where it counts :(

so... yup, my life is spinning out of control - at least mentally. i can't keep things straight anymore, and my motivation for things that need to get done evaporates too quickly. my lack of effort is making me think that my parents might pull me out of school and that would be thee worst! i want to be here... i want a lot of things, but for some reason i can't keep all of that under control. i wish there was a little more certainty in my life and i hate to say that cuz God doesn't change and i trust him, but i just don't know when i'm supposed to be waiting for his direction and when i'm supposed to just know and go with it... i can't concentrate cuz there are always SO many different questions flying through my mind IDK maybe all i need is to buckle down and quit this "normal" college student attitude... i guess i'll just have to see, prayers are so much more than welcome... God please give me some direction