a couple poems from freshman year in high school lol

My Warning
One day
In this frosted, icy cold world
That causes passionate homicides
You
My melancholy frustration, a prophesized thorn
Along with your lost name
That lost name still waiting for its presumed tomorrow
Will be cornered
Like a mouse cowering in disquietude
When confronted by a feline
I will turn off the illumination
On your end of this tunnel called life
But keep up your weary head
Cause the sunset on your time hasn't come yet
Don't despair
Cause you still have a chance before I force you
To crawl away for good
You still have a chance to show me the way
To dissolve this painful hope
With an overwhelming pin
Show me the way
Which path to take?
The left or the right
Might be the wrong
Remember, you fed me pain
And now I will decide what's worthwhile
My formulated patience
Is coming to a meticulous end
It is only temporarily muzzled
By my own fear


You- (You who should know who you are but you don't)

Why am i so different
or am i just too much the same
as everyone else
Why can't you like me
Why do you hate me
What did i do
I tried so hard
now my energy is gone from trying
and i don't have any left to listen to you
Especially when all you say is "You're wrong"

Don't you see me hurting
Don't you care at all
I can't listen to you anymore
as you ramble on
about how pathetic i am

I look into your eyes
and see a knife
moving toward my throat
The hand holding it trembles then steadies itself
It is my hand

I cut myself and bleed like i never had before
I look at you
Expecting help
But to my surprise (no, its no surprise)
you still stand there
telling me i've done everything wrong

As i stand in a giant puddle
filled with blood and tears i'm nearly drowning in
i wonder if you even know that something's wrong
Do you even see i'm dieing

I'll be gone soon
Much sooner than you think
How much longer did you really think
i'd be able to take this
The feel of the knife through my throat
didn't hurt as i thought it would
all the stress flew out my neck
followed closely by my blood
Here i go, i finally see that white light
I've been waiting to see that light so long
I fall to the floor
And you just walk away
thinking you've merely won another argument
when you've won so much more
I'm gone!
Don't you see how happy you'll be

I look away from your eyes
the blood and knife disappear
they'll be back though
and anyway,
all the tears are still here to drown me